This is it.

Well, here we go. I can't believe how quickly the time has gone by. Everyday I felt like the hours were just flying by and I was never able to finish all that I wanted to accomplish. Well, it's pretty much over now. Before the last exam I wasn't unable to really go over every subject in the 7 weeks I had to prepare after graduation. I pretty much skipped community property and the CA Evidence distinctions. This time I was able to read the whole conviser for every subject and familiarize myself with the CA distinctions. I did every essay BarBri offered us and 7 PT's not to mention hundreds of MBE's. I made my own outlines and checklists. Overall I feel much more prepared than last time however I don't feel confident. I've spoken with friends who say that, "everything just came together" in the final weeks. I have never felt like everything was coming together. I actually feel like I have too much information in my head and I will be unable to get everything out in a clear, coherent manner. The stress and anxiety of this experience has been overwhelming. I've lost 15 pounds and my hair is falling out. I'm going to look like a freakish little skeleton at my wedding. Anyway, I truly did give this all I've got. Everything in my life up to this point (except of course my previous failure) has lead me to believe I am capable of passing this exam. I have done NOTHING but study 10+ hrs a day for the last 2 months. I have barely stopped to eat or shower. So this is it. This is all I have. If it's not enough or I panic or something then I just have to accept that it was not meant to be and move on. I really can not subject myself to this again. GOOD LUCK EVERYONE! I really pray that everyone who has put in the work and taken this seriously will pass. You all deserve too!