Wright Something!

I can honestly say that Thursday was above and beyond the worst day of my life. Days 1 and 2 had gone fine. Of course there was a CA Evidence question but I think I got through it ok. Day 2 was fine, a lot of stuff BarBri didn't cover but I figured, who cares, If they didn't teach it no one knows it. However, I know the time factor on the afternoon MBE caused me to miss a bunch of reading comp questions. Eh.

But then came day 3, the absolute worst day ever. Agency and community property. Two subjects I was 100% sure would not be tested and of course here they are. It's so funny how I KNEW that there would be a CA civ pro, wills, mortgages, deeds, liens, equal protection or first amendment and NONE of them were on there. Oh, well. I still think I passed. I analyzed the hell out of those facts.

Then the final PT. I read the library and file and started typing my outline in, then at the 1.5 hour mark I thought to myself, "You got this, you are going to pass the bar exam." at the EXACT moment that thought ran through my head, my computer froze. The proctor had me restart it which caused me to lose my outline. It was a disaster. Suddenly I found myself with about 1 hour and 15 min left, starring at a blank piece of paper. I just keep telling myself "wright something, wright something, write something." But my brain was swimming, I felt sick, I wanted to run out of the room I couldn't remember what I just read. I KNEW it was over, I was going to fail because of this bullshit. I felt the tears choking up. Then I finally started writing. I worked too damn hard for too long to fail myself, they were going to have to fail me. I technically finished the PT however it was an organizational nightmare and I'm sure I can't expect more than a 50. While I feel pretty good about everything else I know that if I got 65's across the board that still would not be enough to pass me with a 50 PT.

As soon as time was called I put my head on the table and started sobbing. Yeah, that was me.